thanks God!!!!!

i had just written a short and depressing blog entry about how i missed my kids, and was still on msn messenger trying unsuccessfully to contact k. when all of a sudden m. signed on from boise!!!!!...we talked on msn for a few minutes!!!!...it was so great, just exactly what i needed tonight...thank you God for always knowing my needs, and i apologize for only thanking You when i figure it out (which i am sure is almost never)...i feel uplifted...i'm not saying that my moods or my temperament is determined by my relationship at any moment with m. and k., but it does somewhat affect it, especially since the divorce and what that has caused...so thanks again, God, for giving me that chance to have some contact with m. when he is about 7 hours away and in another time zone, for that matter!!!!...ok, now i really am going to bed...does anyone really believe that?...

too tired to sleep...wait, didn't i already use that title?

words can't express what is happening...nothing major, really, but at the same time, the simplest parts of life can be the most troubling, can't they?...i miss both of my kids tonight, for two entirely different reasons...and i won't go into either now...i will now try to go and sleep...if i don't stop writing now, i will write for hours, so i will say good night...

i was going to write, but i changed my mind...

i have been down today, not anything too bad, just missing m. and hoping he is having a great time...my back is hurting more than usual...just a slight headache...actually i have had one since wednesday, although not nearly as serious...i talked to k. on msn messenger...she sounded good...i just can't write now...later

good sunday morning to all...

so i will help m. get packed and ready to go today...then i guess i will do some cleaning and organizing around here...i should go back and read my old blog entries about how many times i planned to "clean and organize"...most of the times, sadly, i am sure that is exactly what i did...it looks like i won't go to church today...i have to pray for forgiveness for being what i think was irresponsible during my past illness...there are some people to whom i did not show the consideration they deserved, even though i was ill and wasn't really thinking clearly...i am not quite sure how to handle this situation...i guess my prayer right now would be that God would put in my heart what i need to do, because right now i don't know what that is, or maybe i do and am reluctant to do it...
yesterday sure was a fun day...i think that slowly the balance will be restored to my life...something else i have to consider is being prepared for something major happening in my life...(music interruption: desperado by the eagles is on the radio- good song!)...you know, i can't really get into that subject right now...it is almost constantly on my mind, but somehow writing about it is difficult...this may be what the students hear when i talk about problem solving in math, you know, how they are to put what they are thinking on paper in words, pictures, and numbers (palabras, dibujos, y numeros en espanol!)...wasl, or washington assessment of student learning has been helpful in that way...what was i talking about?...
ok, i'm done...