10/23/2007

still not in the mood to write, so i will just say that...

sometimes i know that things need to be done and said for the benefit of all involved, but in the meantime, you know, while we are waiting for the benefit to happen eventually, it can be painful...

so right now i am experiencing some pain and probably the other person involved is also, but as a mom, i know, that part of my responsibility is to have expectations...

i miss him...

i know that this is a rambling and somewhat confusing entry, but i feel conflicted...

what helps is that my feelings and emotions are temporary and fleeting, but the truth and the facts don't change, so i need not be so concerned about my feelings, they will change...

later...

10/22/2007

how 'bout those red sox?...

is it 2007 or 2004?

i will write more later when i have time, i will just say that i don't know what i would do without those people in my life whom God has given to me for the unconditional (well, most of the time anyway) love, caring, and support...

for some reason i am too emotional to write anymore, but just know that God continues to watch over us and take care of us, even though we don't get what He is doing...He knows!

later...

10/17/07

note to self, kelly...

don't isolate yourself when you have a problem or a situation...remember the people in your life who will listen and who will help, no matter what...talk to them, don't let things get so bad or let it go until it is too late to do anything...

i need to type that there so i remember and not let things happen that way again...

i do feel alone, though, even in a room surrounded by people, that can sometimes be worse than being alone...today was a horrible day, from which i am going to learn instead of seeing it as an entirely negative situation...i was treated rudely by a parent today...as i was walking to the library, i wondered, "how do rude people live with themselves?", and then i chose to use it as a learning opportunity...what can i do to cause this not to happen again?...how can i protect myself from an angry onslaught?...

i'm tired and what i would really like to do is go home and put on some comfortable clothes and just relax, but i will go to bible study and i actually do want to be there...i missed last week and i just don't want to miss any more sessions...

i am looking forward to the weekend, and at the same time, i dread the weekend...if you know me, you understand what i am saying...i anticipate some relaxation, yet i dread the lack of routine and schedule...

later...

10/10/2007

not much to say, i'm still here...

still waiting for a miracle...

later...

10/4/07

i'll let you know what happens...

10/01/07

welcome, october...

there's a lot i could write, but it's not ready to come out yet...

later...