8/25/07

i'm this close to just giving up, but you know that i won't...

it feels like i'm being weighed down by what has been happening and what has not been happening and what will now apparently never happen and i just feel alone...

i wanted an answer and i got one and it wasn't what i wanted but it's good to know where things stand...

it makes me feel like a fool or someone who was and is desperate but that isn't me, so i don't understand...

confusion reigns...

8/23/07

let people know that you love them and care about them...in the end, that is all that matters...for me, it is living my life as an example of Christ's love...

every now and then i go about my day here on earth concerned about work and finances and the mariners game and who's being evicted on big brother? and so on and so forth...then, wham, out of the blue...i am reminded about and humbled by what really matters...

faith, hope, love

while i am saddened by the death on wednesday of a vibrant young man, a husband, father, and pastor, i know that God is saying to him, "Well done, good and faithful servant."

that is all any of us can ever hope to do...

8/21/07

hi...i'm really exhausted, so this will be short...work was better than yesterday, and that is not saying much...

we're going to the fair tomorrow...

big brother is on tonight, so is america's got talent...i hope terry, cas, or butterscotch win...

sorry, i'm just not up to this right now...

later...

8/16/2007

thursday has come and almost gone...why am i so tired?...why do i ask questions when i already know the answer?...look at the calendar...it is almost september and school is just around the corner...this may qualify for the most boring blog entry being written on this day around the world...sorry...

i just can't do this right now...writer's block?...who knows...

maybe tomorrow i'll have some creativity in my thoughts...today it's just not there...

until tomorrow...later

8/15/07

it's about 4:40 pm on wednesday afternoon...it's been an end-of-the-summer day...kids are seemingly ready to return to school...as am i, ready to return to the normalcy of my august through june profession of substitute teaching...why do i love it?...to be honest, i detested subbing at first...but it wasn't the fault of subbing (and yeah, i can call it subbing because i am one- i used to consider it a derogatory term, but no longer)...the fault lay in the circumstances of my life which were sad and wrong (more on that later, or you can just read some of my old blog entries and fill yourself in on some of the crises that became blessings in my life)...i will miss the "family" that has been established once again this summer at recreation station...

i wish at times, selfishly, that i had my own computer and could afford internet so that i could write more and in a more heartfelt way, but here at the library when i only can be online a total of 2 hours daily and i need to either walk home or catch the bus (the 6:45 one at the latest)...i will probably ride the bus because it is 100 degrees or more outside)...enough complaining...at least i have access to a computer...and internet...and it is free...

i am going to look at some of my old blog entries again for a while...later...

8/13/07

sorry it's been so long...i no longer have my own computer or internet at home, so i can only post when i come to the public library...i am so thankful that this blog is still around...figured that it would be terminated when it hadn't been accessed in so long...

i need to leave to walk home now, but i hope to post an update tomorrow...

later...