01/31/05

i am still trying to recover from this flu...i am so exhausted and congested, can't hear at all and have absolutely no energy...what am i going to do?...i am going to try and "work" a couple of hours at kids place this evening, but how responsible is this choice?...also, i still have a bad cough...it may not sound like it, but i am so much better than i was...i am just getting very frustrated to not be able to provide for my family...i need to go, it's too much to have to type all of these words...it wears me out...when will i be back to feeling some energy?

01/30/05

still trying to fully recover from the flu...i'm still very fatigued, congested, weak, and frustrated...i have been attempting to finish my taxes, so that's why i am online, needed some information from my school loan about how much interest i paid last year...i should be able to send off my tax form today or tomorrow...i missed the entire week of work last week...i am trying to determine my ability to teach this upcoming week...i am still so out of it, but so much better than i was...last week felt like a coma...the helpful part has been that i have slept like almost normal the last two days, and that has been a blessing...this, too, shall pass, right?...and i am still dealing with some sadness and frustration about the situation about kim...no more initials, okay...my daughter is named kim, and i miss her so much, it seems unbearable right now...i know that earlier in my blog i actually wrote out people's names, what does it matter if i actually say what people's names are?...maybe later i will regret this and go back and change them all back to initials, but for now, you will get names...by the way, my name is kelly...my son is matt...we are actual persons with names...i don't know if the flu is making me weird or weirder or what, but there you go...okay, back to bed...later...

01/28/05

i have had the flu...it was really bad...feeling much better today...hope all is well out in blogland...i will be back to writing again regularly soon, hopefully...take care and pray for the iraqi elections...

01/22/05

haven't written for a while...sorry...i am not going to write much on this tonight, either...i am obviously alive but have been quite down...not depressed, just saddened by life and in need of prayers, as we all are...many people in my life are experiencing especially hard times, so i quickly offer them up in prayer...my aunt l., whom i saw today, is in much pain and has so much responsibility...my mom and dad are in the middle of caring for the older generation and caring about the younger generation (namely, me, my bro and sis, etc.)...my daughter who continues to estrange herself from me...my son who has many choices to make...so many other people, like the soldiers around the world and in iraq especially as we await the elections...also those brave iraqi police officers who risk their lives to help ensure safe elections...

every day it just continues to be a hard world in which to live, but we do keep going, doing our best for His glory until our time here is up and we get to go to our reward or punishment...

it's not that easy, though, is it?..

01/15/05

just a quick note to say hi and that i have been extremely busy with work and also having fun, which i will write about later...hope this day is a great one for all...

01/09/05

had a great weekend with m. in seattle...will tell more later...we are home safely and that is what matters...

01/04/05

my return to teaching has been really great, more on that later...after work at kp, i was invited over to a.'s house for dinner and we had the best time talking and laughing and playing with her puppy...we also prayed together before i left...i just got home about ten minutes ago...we are watching "amazing race"...hey, all of you out in blogland should watch the seattle seahawks and the st. louis rams game on saturday afternoon- m. and i are driving up and going to the game!!!!...so if you are watching and you see a couple of crazy fans, that would be us!...it is going to be freezing cold, but we will have fun!...i have been to numerous major league baseball games, several NBA Seattle Sonic games, many WHL hockey games, a Seattle Sounders soccer game, and an NFL "strike" game with replacement players (fun! not), but this is my first NFL playoff game, so it should be fun...the weather may be very bad on the drive up, so those of you out there who pray, please say a prayer of safety for us, starting at about 6 am on saturday morning...

anyone out there seen "napoleon dynamite"?...yes, i have seen it 3 times and unfortunately for anyone in my life, i have memorized certain lines and tend to say those lines at random times...what is it about that movie that makes it so quotable?...my favorite characters are pedro and kip...

i'll write more later...

01/01/05

it is just another day, isn't it?...december 31, 2004 was one 24-hour period, and now january 1, 2005 is the next 24-hour period that follows, right?...i could be realistic and practical, but no...i choose to see this as a new start, a new beginning...i sit here at my computer and watch the mix of rain and snow fall from the sky...will 2005 start out like 2004 did exactly one year ago today, when inches and inches of snow fell until we were buried for the entire month under at least a foot of snow?...hmmm, is that why i bought all of that canned food at safeway yesterday?...i have candles, a lighter, batteries, what else will i need if the power goes out like it did several times last year?...

there is something peaceful about falling snow...i wish peace could fall onto people and places like snow does...some people would need an avalanche of peace to fall upon them...me included...

don't quite know where this blog entry is coming from...

i think m. and i will go out to mom and dad's and watch football bowl games...a strange year since neither washington state nor washington are in any bowl games because they were both poor teams this year...but once the bowl games are through, i can concentrate on college basketball and then baseball...once again i can bury myself in sports to take away the frustration and confusion about the difficult things that happen in this world...

sorry, i will not make promises that i know i won't keep, like "oh, this year i am going to _____ and _____, and not _____anymore!...really!"...yeah, right...

so monday it is back to teaching and i will be at the same elementary school in the same assignment for maybe 3 weeks...

so i'll end this entry with a prayer for myself, my son and my daughter, my family, my friends, my co-workers, anyone reading this blog, and basically anyone in the world...just do what you can to make the world a better, more peaceful, more interesting place...sounds trite and simple, but it can be very difficult to do this, especially when things aren't going well...

Lord, thank You for Your love...help me trust in You...help me always to seek You...use me whatever way You can to help others...Amen...