02/27/05

kim called me once since that blog and spoke with me for a couple of minutes, other than that it has been the same as it was over the past months...i will just continue to love her and "leave the door open" for a relationship, if that is what she seeks now, or ever...meanwhile, it looks like matt and i are moving once again, this time into a 2 bedroom apartment in the same complex...this looks to be a very good move...also we will probably we will going to the 3A high school basketball tournament this weekend since hanford high has made it to state...if it works out, i will drive up with matt and couple of friends to tacoma and stay thursday and friday nights and watch some high school basketball...i hope it happens, i am excited to go...back in 1979, my junior year, my high school's boys 4A basketball team, Pasco, played in the state championship game against our biggest rival, the crosstown Richland Bombers...it was my 17th birthday, and i attended the game with my sister and brother-in-law and my brother...it was great, unfortunately, we lost, but 2nd place in the whole state of washington is awesome!...so 25 years later, here am i going to my son's former school's state playoffs!...i'll let you know how it goes...

02/14/05

i may have just received the best valentine's day gift ever possible...there is hope for some kind of reconciliation with kim...i didn't teach today, was feeling overwhelmingly sad, missing her, and prayed and tried to cry but couldn't...so i was resting, then fell asleep and heard knocking at the front door...i didn't want to see anyone, and knew that matt had a key, so...then the phone rang...i thought that matt had misplaced his key, so i walked out to the front room and saw kim looking in the window...she sat and ate her subway sandwich (she loves the ones with bacon and mayo, although you could never tell from her trim athletic build) and we talked and i was honest without being pathetic...it was a wonderful conversation because it was simply a mom and daughter talking...she is going to be here the next few days...something may have happened at her grandparents' home...i don't know...i cried for joy when she left and i prayed that God would help me in this new chance that i have...i need to be realistic, too, and know what has happened and not forget that...but above all, i love kim, have never stopped loving her, no matter what, and that will be the way it was no matter what happens this time...i'd just like kim to know that wherever i am, there is always a place for her...i hope that we can have a real relationship, but i am not sure what that means...so, maybe this is a new day...a new start...we will see...