03/31/2006

since i last wrote...two days after my last blog entry, i went to the er with severe pain and had major abdominal surgery the next day...i am still recovering and have recently taken a turn for the worse...i believe that i returned to work too early and have had a relapse...what else is the choice of a single mother with two kids, etc.?...i face another surgery in may, a biopsy...this may be minor or major or life-threatening or life-ending...we just don't know yet...my concern is for my kids...if you out there want to pray for my situation, please pray that my kids would come to know the Lord...

any of you that read my blog know that i love sports as a distraction to real life, so i anticipate the final four games and the ncaa championship very much...

i just don't have the energy for typing right now...anyway, we're moving again (to a townhouse in this same complex) so that will be keeping us occupied for today and this weekend...in my physical condition i am unable to help in the way that i am used to...so...that has been a very difficult part of this, i am usually physically and mentally able to work 2 jobs and do an hour of pilates afterward and have enough energy to function as a human being, but lately i get those waves of dizziness and light-headedness even as i am sitting doing nothing...

i am having much difficulty getting through the mental part of not being who i used to be...not only my physical energy is gone but my mental clarity and emotional stability even, at times...i have lost patience...this is just really difficult...

this too shall pass...i know...but it's still hard...