10/17/07

note to self, kelly...

don't isolate yourself when you have a problem or a situation...remember the people in your life who will listen and who will help, no matter what...talk to them, don't let things get so bad or let it go until it is too late to do anything...

i need to type that there so i remember and not let things happen that way again...

i do feel alone, though, even in a room surrounded by people, that can sometimes be worse than being alone...today was a horrible day, from which i am going to learn instead of seeing it as an entirely negative situation...i was treated rudely by a parent today...as i was walking to the library, i wondered, "how do rude people live with themselves?", and then i chose to use it as a learning opportunity...what can i do to cause this not to happen again?...how can i protect myself from an angry onslaught?...

i'm tired and what i would really like to do is go home and put on some comfortable clothes and just relax, but i will go to bible study and i actually do want to be there...i missed last week and i just don't want to miss any more sessions...

i am looking forward to the weekend, and at the same time, i dread the weekend...if you know me, you understand what i am saying...i anticipate some relaxation, yet i dread the lack of routine and schedule...

later...